Reflection and the help of friends

Recently I've been questioning myself, my very being. I feel as though I am drifting. The only passion I currently have is the Fraternity and that frightens me. What is my grander purpose? How do I fit into the big tapestry? My usual sentiments is that my role is to help others, but why is it that even though I'm doing that I feel like I'm leading a meaningless life. How is it that I feel inadequate to the challenge of being independent. I had been having cold feet about the Peace Corp but am now realizing that it is what I need more than anything. This could very well be the life defining moment that I've been waiting for. I am petrified though of leaving what I've grown so fond of. The past four years have given me what I've always needed, to be respected. Now I have that and it seems that I have a strangle hold on what should be my past, but what is very much my present. As such I know that I am going to be leaving developing relationships and allowing them to lie fallow. Possibly never to come to fruition. I need to start taking control of my own life and proving to myself that I am capable. Here goes.

p.s. Thanks to Jenn and Mel. Two friends who always remind me of myself. Something I tend to forget on occasion.